You seem to have made up your mind. [They nod.] But I do not agree that words are wasted on monsters. Not all monsters are mindless beasts.
[Enkidu wants to muse about it a little bit more, at least, until Lio mentions feeling jealous. And that is...interesting. Despite the sadness that has settled inside of them there is a small spark. Now humans have never expressed to be jealous of them. That is...new and somewhat ridiculous.]
I wonder why you think that. I have never been on the receiving end of a human's envy. For a human to envy a mere tool, that is... [Enkidu frowns in thought.] ...If anything I should envy you. For having a soul that would always grow. I do not understand why you would envy me. But if it is adventures you lack...if my heart is healed we could go out and explore the Wilde. There are...a lot of plants I still wish to discover.
[That last sentence draws a joyless chuckle from their mouth.]
As I am now... That is truly kind of you... [Enkidu reaches out for the bread and breaks off a small bit.] I will return that sentiment then. It is good that I have met you as well.
( he huffs, though it comes out as a slightly muted laugh as well. yes--- maybe his word choice wasn't the best, but the monsters here are way better than what kray is. lio has yet to meet someone as selfish and maligned as him.
but he gazes at enkidu with a fondness that he reserves for those he finds to be amiable. they are thoughtful. it must come from how long they've existed, what they've experienced, and lio wants to soak it all in. when his life has been, up to this point, very fast? being able to reflect is... pleasant. it's nice. )
I don't know if we think of a soul as the same thing. ( his promare was a part of his, at one point. ) But I think as long as you have one, it does grow. Just maybe not in the same way you think.
( this, for example? would his soul not grow? despite the pain, doesn't something sprout? )
But I'd like that. I don't like traveling out there by myself.
( he also takes some bread, chews and swallows thoughtfully. it's probably the best loaf he's made yet, though it always seems to be missing something... )
That is an interesting thing to say. [In their mind they're dismissing it already, though. They know they have a soul and they know it's limited by what the gods have engraved into it. They still do not entirely dare to declare that they might've learned from their experiences here. The fondness they have felt for others or being thoroughly touched by their kindness and gestures. The selflessnes they show.] How would you define a soul?
[They focus their gaze onto the other's face while they shove a large chunk of bread in their mouth.]
Hmm… [More chewing.] ...mm... [even more chewing.] ...ah...but it isn't wise to travel alone. Unless you know the way. When many shades are lurking I try to use the trees. I know how to manipulate some matters with the magic I possess so I can make things easier to move forward. Unfortunately I do not possess the strength to deal with a lot of shades at once.
( it's what lio believes. 'interesting' is a word rarely used when something is considered to be... pertinent? relevant? feigning the interest that makes it part of said word. but he doesn't think that enkidu would be so flippant toward lio, knowing there is a kindness there. and that's why lio smiles politely and warmly before shrugging. )
It's who we are. Our soul always shows when we're at our best, at our worst, and everything in between. Even though I may not be Burnish anymore, it's still a part of me... the fire will always stay lit inside as long as I keep breathing.
( another drink, a grab of some bread, and lio nods. it sounds like enkidu is strong. )
No. I don't like traveling alone in the first place. I'm too used to doing things with others now. Having backup seems necessary when magic isn't always effective.
( and with his sword, the harpy knows he can be a formidable opponent. training against others has helped, and as long as he can improvise... )
So, we can go together. Worst case scenario? I can try carrying you out of danger.
[They nod firmly at that and smile a small, sad smile. They discovered that when Gil was still here. For a moment they seem to zone out, remembering their bond ceremony quite vividly. Truly, only Gil could effordlessly drag that part of them out.]
I agree to that. The core of your soul will never change.
[They still see a human soul as something more superior to their own. Something that isn't held back by inscriptions mad by old gods. Burnish or not, Lio will grow beyond that, yet Enkidu will always be a weapon.]
That is what I severely miss about Gil. He...knew that very well. [They pause yet again and the look on their face seems to grow sadder with every passing second. Their shoulders slump and they spend a long time gazing at the mug.]
I would like that. We can soar above the trees. I miss the wind. [Finally they sigh.] I miss a lot of things, so it seems,,,
( seeing enkidu struggle... emotions are hard. he knows. being tough in all situations, no matter how big or small, is what made him feel strong. having the power to reinforce those beliefs also gave him strength. but losing all of that hurt him greatly, and even now he's not sure what kind of direction he's going.
but right now, lio's positive about one thing. )
I'll do my best. ( he nods once. ) I can be your wings.
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[Enkidu wants to muse about it a little bit more, at least, until Lio mentions feeling jealous. And that is...interesting. Despite the sadness that has settled inside of them there is a small spark. Now humans have never expressed to be jealous of them. That is...new and somewhat ridiculous.]
I wonder why you think that. I have never been on the receiving end of a human's envy. For a human to envy a mere tool, that is... [Enkidu frowns in thought.] ...If anything I should envy you. For having a soul that would always grow. I do not understand why you would envy me. But if it is adventures you lack...if my heart is healed we could go out and explore the Wilde. There are...a lot of plants I still wish to discover.
[That last sentence draws a joyless chuckle from their mouth.]
As I am now... That is truly kind of you... [Enkidu reaches out for the bread and breaks off a small bit.] I will return that sentiment then. It is good that I have met you as well.
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but he gazes at enkidu with a fondness that he reserves for those he finds to be amiable. they are thoughtful. it must come from how long they've existed, what they've experienced, and lio wants to soak it all in. when his life has been, up to this point, very fast? being able to reflect is... pleasant. it's nice. )
I don't know if we think of a soul as the same thing. ( his promare was a part of his, at one point. ) But I think as long as you have one, it does grow. Just maybe not in the same way you think.
( this, for example? would his soul not grow? despite the pain, doesn't something sprout? )
But I'd like that. I don't like traveling out there by myself.
( he also takes some bread, chews and swallows thoughtfully. it's probably the best loaf he's made yet, though it always seems to be missing something... )
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[They focus their gaze onto the other's face while they shove a large chunk of bread in their mouth.]
Hmm… [More chewing.] ...mm... [even more chewing.] ...ah...but it isn't wise to travel alone. Unless you know the way. When many shades are lurking I try to use the trees. I know how to manipulate some matters with the magic I possess so I can make things easier to move forward. Unfortunately I do not possess the strength to deal with a lot of shades at once.
[How ironic.]
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It's who we are. Our soul always shows when we're at our best, at our worst, and everything in between. Even though I may not be Burnish anymore, it's still a part of me... the fire will always stay lit inside as long as I keep breathing.
( another drink, a grab of some bread, and lio nods. it sounds like enkidu is strong. )
No. I don't like traveling alone in the first place. I'm too used to doing things with others now. Having backup seems necessary when magic isn't always effective.
( and with his sword, the harpy knows he can be a formidable opponent. training against others has helped, and as long as he can improvise... )
So, we can go together. Worst case scenario? I can try carrying you out of danger.
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I agree to that. The core of your soul will never change.
[They still see a human soul as something more superior to their own. Something that isn't held back by inscriptions mad by old gods. Burnish or not, Lio will grow beyond that, yet Enkidu will always be a weapon.]
That is what I severely miss about Gil. He...knew that very well. [They pause yet again and the look on their face seems to grow sadder with every passing second. Their shoulders slump and they spend a long time gazing at the mug.]
I would like that. We can soar above the trees. I miss the wind. [Finally they sigh.] I miss a lot of things, so it seems,,,
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but right now, lio's positive about one thing. )
I'll do my best. ( he nods once. ) I can be your wings.